Finger Licking Good!

I’m not sure if they are or not but he sure does make them sound like it! Little Man has discovered his fingers!! Our little man loves his pacifier but yesterday he wanted those fingers instead!! It is so cute to hear his sucking and slobbering all over them.

He is growing so fast!! He amuses us daily and himself! The way he is eying Tiny, Cocoa, and Ace, I know he will get them first thing when he starts moving around. Ace is a team player right now. He just stands there and licks Little Man while Little Man grabs him. Oh yeah…grabbing these days means pinching. That kid can pinch. Of course he is just gripping with all his might and has no idea he is pinching.

I’ll have to get a picture up of him slurping on his fingers! Too cute!

Life's about changing Nothing ever stays the same...

The earth is bare, you plant a seed, provide food and water, soon a sprout, then a plant, and then a beautiful flower - All of this happens b/c of change.

I sat on our bed, he packed his suitcase
I held a picture of our wedding day
His hands were trembling, we both were crying
He kissed me gently and then he quickly walked away
I called up Mama, she said, Time will ease your pain
Life's about changing, nothing ever stays the same

Don't freak - I'm not getting a divorce. Just a perfect couple of lyrics to sum up the feelings and thoughts I have racing in my head. You may or may not know but I got married to my High School Sweetheart on May 5th, 2001. On March 8th, 2004 my life changed in a way I never imagined. I thought my life was over but it wasn't. It was just beginning!! Life's about changing, nothing ever stays the same and I'm glad it doesn't.

Change is a never ending cycle. Change is an amazing thing. Here is how my life has changed in 5 years - I learned to live. I learned to breath. I learned that life goes on and I'm the only one in charge of my life. I've learned that I can survive, alone. I've learned that family and some friends will stick by you through it all. I've learned that some family and friends were never there for you. I've learned that the times I thought I was alone, I wasn't. Since I decided to accept Christ as my personal savior many years ago as a child he has been with me since. I've learned that the internet can bring two soulmates together. I've learned you can fall in love with someone as soon as your hearts meet. I've learned God will send you your soulmate if you never give up. I've learned that through thick and thin, through tears and pain, real love endures. I've learned tragic things can plant seeds to wonderful things. I've learned you don't really know love until you become a mother. I've learned you don't know pain until you see your child in pain. I've learned that I will get no where in life sitting in the driver's seat. God has to be the driver. You are just here for the ride.

Since the birth of our son a lot in our lives has changed. One thing that remains is the love I have for my husband and his love for me. We have been through some things that have done nothing but watered our love and allowed it to grow. I've experienced things lately that lead me to see the things that are important in life. Family is number one. And for me, My family is number one. I've got to provide for Holden, Billy and me. I've got to provide change, change that will lead me to happiness.

I'm not sure if anyone that encounters me on a daily basis has noticed or not but I haven't been happy in a while. Things have happened that have bashed my soul. My drive is gone. My fire is out in regards to a certain situation in my life. I'm ready tonight to make a change. God is going to lead me down the path I should take.

May God continue to bless you and yours.

Why I do anything.

What a Day! 9-1-09

Yesterday was a very eventful day.

Little Man stayed home with his daddy as he took him to meet me at the doctor’s office for his 4 month shots. Everything is going great with Little Man. He is now in the 75th percentile with both his height and weight. At his two month appointment he was in the 75th percentile for weight and 10th percentile for height. We are excited our son will not be a midget. (Just a little joke between Hubby and I – we will love and adore our son if he is a midget, a giant or somewhere in between)

Of course with all the milestone well visits, there come the dreaded shots. There was an older boy in the next room screaming as if Michael were visiting b/c he didn’t want his shots. I’m blaming the parents for planting this fear in him. (As a parent I have this honor) Little Man did great until after his stabbings. (Have you seen how they do this??) I would have screamed too! Of course, mama and daddy comforted him right away as we got him dressed.

After his appointment we grabbed something to eat in celebration of our 2 year wedding anniversary and ran a couple errands at the grocery store and Wal-Mart. By the time we got home, Little Man was screaming b/c of his shots. He did the same thing for his two-month shots except I missed work the next day. Luckily this time his screaming just lasted until the night. This morning he was up and chattering away with his goos and daaas. Hubby thinks he is saying daddy but yeah well he isn’t. lol.

To calm him from his screaming last night my mama and I took turns, as Hubby and my Daddy worked on our water line that the cows busted, walking him around outside. Life on a farm! Ain’t it grand? When Hubby came in he asked me to come into the bathroom w/him. I thought I was in trouble b/c my mouth tends to end me up there but I wasn’t. Apparently the water threw up some Batesburg Fire Ants (they deserve to be proper nouns) and he lay in them. It looks like his skin taste the best around his waistline. Poor thing!